disappointment

if you can't please everybody....
then you can't please yourself.
every choice seems wrong.
nothing makes good sense all the way.
you're basically f-ed anyway you go.
the path is goal.
wrong path, wrong goal?
end justifies the means, but
the means are the end?
you have to live righteous,
in order to be right.
what is right?
can going back, be looking forward?
i need to grow somewhere.
i need to go somewhere.
i think i know what i want, and
i think i know what i need.
i do not know how to get it.
i keep telling the universe.
maybe only half-heartedly.
why do i keep riding the fence?
can't do shhhh while riding the fence.
the plan will never ever happen until...
i fully commit.
i need to decide.
what am i for.
what am i against.
get off the f-ing fence.
sorry for being a disappointment.